i hate YOU. :)

there are times when i feel so depressed. or very emotional.
it's like all of a sudden my system crashes and i feel suffocated or something; it's so hard to explain. well, there are a series of events which eventually lead me to break down.
for example, someone not listening to me, or me not getting what i want might just trigger it and make me lose my sanity and i'll start crying non-stop.
it feels so good to let it out.
but i have no idea why i feel like this.
i felt like that a while back. fine now. but it has left a little effect. and i still feel it sometimes. it's so weird. i'm weird. everyone's weird. people = weird.
i just get carried away once i start.

anyways, on another note.
i hate a lot of things. i'm a hating kind of person. but not really. i love people.
me = sunshine. people = happiness. me + people = love.
(like i said, i get carried away..)

things i detest/dislike/hate:

- dirty feet or socks. why do people not wash their socks?! why do they walk around barefoot when the area's dirty? really pisses me off. and irritates me to no end.

- chapped lips. not exactly hate, because some people might have problems, etc. but it just bugs me. it's like when someone has a mole on their face which is so huge and you're trying not to look at it but your eyes just keep going back to the mole. yeah, that's how it is with chapped lips for me.

- unclean ears. there are things such as Q-TIPS. use them. this is annoying. and disgusting. i'd lose my appetite seeing it.

- talking about bathroom adventures, or anything related to it during a meal. really disgusting. i lose my appetite. when i'm not eating, it's just plain gross.

- when people tell me how to do something when i know exactly how to do it. like shut up, i don't want to know.

- body odor. yes, some people might have problems. but oh god, it's gross and sad. and it's really nasty. like unclean socks.

- clingy kids. the kind that are all like "me, me. pick me" etc etc. maybe my kids will be like that too? who knows. lol

- when people assume that just cause i act like i don't care about anything, or if i'm letting them say stuff to me without saying anything back, that they can just continue their crap with me. this is annoying. sometimes, people get too carried away. i have feelings too.

- when i find out some sexcapade (sex+escapade) about a person who i thought was so awesome or decent because that's the way they'd show themselves. i don't mean that i should catch them in the act of "intercourse" literally. i mean that when i find out something about them which i don't like. maybe i judge too quickly. maybe i shouldn't judge them at all based on their appearance. but i like to think the best of them and then i go and find out something they do. my hope in humanity literally shatters. (i'm too dramatic but yeah)

- boys who say crap about a girl to their friends, etc but when they're with said girl, they're all like "oh we're BFF's". shut up. i hate you loser.

- my boss. ahahhaahah. okay, i don't hate him. he just irritates me. and today i'm just annoyed so he made the list.

- it really bugs me when people are so comfortable when talking about other people's business. how can i trust you if you tell me shit about your good friend? (ya feel me?)

okay, i got to get back to doing my work.
this list is not even near done to be honest.
and it's not exactly hatred but i like to say hate because it seems like a decent term. or maybe bother, irritate, yada yada.